So, I finally got it together to move into my own apartment downtown! It's great! However, I still haven't managed to find a job... Luckily my boyfriend works so he's been helping out and I get some money from school so we've been keeping afloat so far. Unfortunately, I have no idea when i'll be able to really get a job... I went to the emergency room a couple of weeks ago and they told me they think my aplastic anemia may be coming out of remission. My white count was down and my platelet count was down so I have to wear a medical mask everywhere I go. I don't see anyone hiring me anytime soon. Even worst still I don't have insurance so I haven't actually been able to go back to the doctor to find anything else out or do anything about my current condition. If anyone knows of any programs in Michigan for people like me or any FREE clinics (Not low income but FREE) it would help me tremendously...

I can't believe I have so many people in my life and no help! My so called friend who was helping me out with a ride today "forgot" to tell their dad that I needed one and at what time. So now I don't know how I'm getting there and I have no way to contact them. This is why I have to get out on my own. I have no one. If anyone knew where I could find help with getting a car or moving expenses in Michigan it would be greatly appreciated.

Have you tried social services or the salvation army? I know the salvation army pays uttility bills, you're probably already familiar with them but I figured I'd mention it anyway.

I don't  feel comfortable asking for money... Maybe I will if I get desperate enough. However if anyone knows of any programs in Michigan that help with issues like transportation, moving costs ect. it would be greatly appreciated. I'm in school, single, female, and underemployed so I'm sure I must fit someone's criteria...

 *I decided to move it here because I don't think it belongs in the about me section. This is only a glimpse into my life!* (Originally posted August 14)

I don't know where to begin... Stumbled on to this site from google because I was looking up information about Aplastic Anemia. It's a disease where your bone marrow can't produce your blood cells, usually because of a autoimmune disorder, meaning that your immune system is attacking the stem cells that produce your blood cells. I used to have it. It's considered a life threatening disease that you live with for the rest of your life unless you get a bone marrow transplant, and I haven't had one. But I don't like to say that, I believe words have power, so when I speak about it, I say I used to have it. I had drug therapy to treat it and I'm healthy now, not 100%, but healthy, so I consider my self cured. As far as I can tell anyway, I lost my health insurance in 2006. But anyway doctors however consider it being in remission.

I've been okay for years now, but every once in a while something will happen to make me think about when I used to be sick. I googled Aplastic Anemia and pregnancy. I never thought about it before, I was only 16 when I got sick. But I'm 23 now and I have found the love of my life and I wanted to know how it would affect me. I thought maybe there was a risk to the baby, a risk genetically as far as who I have a child with. But none of that was a problem. What I found out was that I could get sick again by getting pregnant. That scares me so much.

Apparently getting pregnant is actually a CAUSE of Aplastic Anemia. Even more surprising the first known case of Aplastic Anemia was in a pregnant woman. I guess I could handle the idea of a baby that doesn't exist yet being sick better than me getting sick again. Does that make me a horrible person? All my life, I just wanted to be normal, I've never had a normal life. Even before getting sick my life was pretty abnormal and bad (something I'll talk about in later posts). The minute I think it can't get worst than this it does. 2x. I felt like starting a new family, my OWN family would be a fresh start, and now I might even be denied that.

So I start school tomorrow but I still haven't managed to move near campus... I don't know how I'm going to get to school everyday. My friend's dad offered to take me but I don't know how long that will last, especially after next week when I have to go there 4 times a week. It's a 30 minute drive so I don't think he'll do it for long. I still haven't come up with the money for a place or a car for that matter. They cut my hours at work I'm barely working 2 days a week. I really don't know how I'm going to do this....

I'm supposed to be moving in two weeks. What should be the happiest time of my life seems to be the worst. I'm broke. I've barely made any money from the new job I started to pay for the deposit down on a new aparment. All I've ever wanted it was to get away from my family and get my own place, and yet the thought that I'll be gone (maybe) in two weeks can't even ease the pain of the daily torture I go through living with them. Everyday I find a reason to dispise them. I don't even have real conversations wih them anymore. I just pretend to be happy and I don't complain because I just want to hurry up and move out without any problems.

My first post was about Aplastic Anemia but honestly that was a fluke. I'd say that's only 5% of my problems right now, which I guess to some people says a lot about me. I can't stand the fakeness of my family, its suffocating me. They just pretend to care, and on a good day they just right out ignore me. I've been an adult for 5 years now, you can stop pretending already. You don't have to do anything for me, and stop hindering me by leading me to believe I can depend on you when I need you. If you just let it be known that you don't really give a shit then I can move on with my life and make decisions based on what I can do for myself. I can also stop emotionally torturing myself wondering if you really love me at the end of the day. Maybe then I can begin to heal and deal with the idea that I have no real family.

And I don't know how my family expects me to move. I can't keep a job because no one wants to get me to work on time (for no real reason), the economy is shit so I can't get a job close enough where I can just take the bus, they'd rather spend $200 on cell phone bills but can't pay the utillities and the rent, niether could they loan me $20 so I could open up a bank account so I could get paid at my job. I'm going to stop here, I'll be all night typing if I keep going. I just pray my money from school comes back so I can move because working ain't working...

A little late but have you tried the salvation army? I believe they'll help pay your utillities. You need to try to get on some other assistance like food stamps, I don't know who you would contact about that in your state but it's the FIA office in mine. Just look at your state's government website they usually have that information.

Well... I'm a 23 year old college student. I live in Michigan, which is kinda undergoing it's own little great depression. I'm already $15,000 in debt for a multitude of reasons (student loans, credit card debt, social security). I didn't spend my money recklessly, I just got stuck in a lot of bad situations. All my credit card debt is from trying to pay bills from back when I shared a apartment with my brother who didn't want to pay his share. I was sick for a while, I have aplastic anemia and I was on disability for 4 years but social security decided that I wasn't sick for the last year (not true) and now they want me to pay back their money. Not only that but they cut off my health insurance so I have no idea what's going on with my body. I'm supposed to go to the doctor every 3 months and stay on medication because my platelet level still isn't normal but I can't pay for any of that.

I don't have any immediate family, my mom left when I was a baby and my dad, well you know how it is with them.... I don't even know him at all. I still have my family on my mother's side but they are less than concerned with my well being. Don't get me wrong they're involved in my life but recently I've come to the conclusion that they do just enough so that they can sleep at night (which isn't very much at all, which says a lot about how compassionate they are in the first place). It used to really bother me but lately I realized I have to get over it and move on if I'm going to survive in the world. I can't keep playing their games and trying to test them on how much they care. It has caused set backs in my life because instead of making decisions based off of what I know I can do on my own, I made them based off their lies and empty promises and I ended up getting stuck with the bill so to speak.

Right now I'm trying to move, I can't even begin to get into the reasons why I have to get away from my family, I will say it's deeper than just not getting along. They are literally hindering me from moving on in life. But I mainly need to move so that I'm closer to school and can take the bus everyday. I don't have a car and I can't drive because no one wants to teach me. I will learn when I get the money to take classes and get a car. But I don't know how that's gonna happen.

I also need to move because I can find a job easier in the city. My family doesn't want to drive me to work either and there are not any buses near me. I managed to find a job down the street but they barely give me 10 hours a week. Not only that but sometimes it seems like I have trouble getting my family to drive me down the street! So I need to be somewhere where I can take care of myself. Luckily I have a boyfriend who supports me the best way he can but he can only do so much. We're both young and not even out of school yet making minimum wage. He can't take care of me and I don't expect him to.

Sigh... I'm just trying to catch a break out here...